If Only

Someone said to me once, "If only we have the same faith, I'll ask you to let me know you more". And for one second, I was speechless. Not because the implicit propose, but because I barely speak English. *Kidding. That phrase was phrase that I haven't heard for more than a thousand days.  Last time I heard that, when I was in Jogja, which was lasting for about hundred days.

Having him said that, made me wonder. "If only" was a simple phrase with a huge impact.  In my case, if we weren't strong enough in our faith, our believed in God, we could say that, "Hei, let's do this.  Let's see where time will bring us to."  After that, one thing shall lead to the others.  After being together for a while, the feeling grew faster than we could imagine.  And the last thing that we want to do would occur; betrayed our faith, just to pursue our own faith in happiness.  Thank God we had a same perspective for not doing that.  And we were able to manage that phrase as just as a phrase.

I had another case involving "If only."  Once someone said, "If only we met just a few months earlier..." I was in cloud nine when he said that, knowing that he was just like my own reflection in different gender of sex; my favorite type of human being, which was me.  Hell, how narcissistic I am!  But then, my common sense screamed out loud, "But you're not! Just get rid of those thought and be friends with him."  Which I did, and it was one the best decisions I've ever made.

I'm not saying that "If only" is a bad phrase. It's like a coin, has two sides.

On one side, it represents the possibility occurred in the future.  “If only I can finish my work before 5pm, I’ll be reaching home before twilight.”  We might feel encouraged, and execute every single job we have as soon as possible.

But on the other side, and I think mostly happen in our daily life, it represents the possibility that should not be occurred in the present, forming feeling of regrets. As my example number two.   “If only we met just a few months earlier, we should have been together by now.” But since it didn’t happen, we aren’t together by now.  Is it sad?  Maybe, for those who might think that God is not good enough for them.  Because just remember, that God has planned every single tiny and detail destiny of our life, including the “the possibility that should not be occurred in the present – If only” thing.

But still, "the possibility that should not be occurred in the present - If only" might be forming in happiness too.  "If only we met just a few months earlier, I should have left you by now because it turns out doesn't work well."  See?  It's just the matter of perspective.  And there is one “If only” that means, yep,, it just won’t happen.  No matter how hard you try, how bad you feel, it just won’t happen.  Shall never happen.

So, keep in touch with “If only” in positive side, whether it’s the possibility occurred in the future, or the possibility that should not be occurred in the present in a bad way forming the happiness. You even should really thankful for that not happen.


What the hell am I talking about.  Such a rubbish post.