Turn Back in Time

If you were a cast in a movie as Aladin, and had Genie who will grant a specific wish, which is turning back in time, will you take that wish? 

If I were you, I won’t.  No matter how bad I was in my behavior or my decision, I will never exchange my current condition with anything.  Why?  Does it mean that I don’t have something I regret?  Am I really satisfied with my life? 

Well, it’s a tricky question.  Yes, I do have something I feel regret about.  But that doesn’t mean that I’m not satisfied with my life.  Because I belief that everything happened in my life, was happened for a reason, for so many reasons in fact.  I would never exchange every stories of my life happened in 2014: even for a tiniest part of it; even for a better version of it.  Why?  Because I had those stories as a result for what I’ve given in the entire year, extended with the previous year.

It’s not a big secret that started from January 2014, I officially joined one of the best Ministry in Indonesia.  I’ve been working in Directorate of General Taxes since then, with the following consequences: being assigned for the internship period and for definitive placement (for the next several years) in Jakarta; met and being surrounded by so many great people, some became my best-friends; had a Pra-jabatan training, DTU and DTSD, which tested me in physically and mentally, in leadership and knowledge.  Having those experiences, I simply can ask for no more.  All the hard work I've given on 2013 during the open recruitment process was paid off.  I've worked my ass off for God's sake.

Through the year, both of my younger sisters had their own achievement.  One of them graduated from Faculty of Medicine on late February, and now is having her internship (co-as) in Semarang and Wonogiri; fulfilled my parents biggest dream, which was to have a humble doctor in my family. While my youngest sister, she succeed registering herself as one of Yogyakarta’s residence, just like two of her sisters, by entering Faculty of Law, Gadjah Mada University.  Even though those were not my own achievement, I felt proud of them, and considered that as something that I won’t exchange for anything, bearing in mind that they had sacrificed blood and tear to reach what they've achieved now.

Having my family health in a good condition throughout the year, was something I should be grateful for; to see my Mom, Dad, and my sisters made a wish and blow some candles on their birthday cake without any meaningful illness in their body and soul.

Year of 2014 was also filled with two journey with my Golden Weekend Team, up hill to Baduy Dalam, and down hill to Ujung Kulon.  And as a bonus, even several of its member got married, which happened like a domino, one triggered to another, which the total members to get married were 3 of it.  Such a wake up call for the rest.  In which, led me to another thing to be grateful for.

As my age got older in 2014, meeting some people coloring my day made me realize of what I’ve missed from my college period: that it’s not right to see them solely in one point of view; that each of them had their own kindness and goodness, which was supposed to be easily noticed and loved, including you, the one who considered me as a Mango.

Yes, it’s true that sometime in my 2014, there were some bad moments.  But hey, who don’t?  As long as we manage to deal with it, whether by ourselves or along with companion from people around us.  Just put our head up high, and we should thank God for it.  Those bad moments shall make us become stronger than we think we are.

And this is the conclusion of my New Year post.  I'm gonna say it out loud.

I love my 2014, and I won't change anything of it. So, I don't need any Genie.

I’m here for who I am, for who I was and for who I’ll become.

Thus, welcome 2015, and good bye 2014.